Mcdreamy Dream

Normally I don’t dream about Grey’s even though I absolutely love it I just don’t really dream of it but this dream was so realistic it was crazy. It started off in Season 12 and I play the role as Meredith’s babysitter. It was a warm sunny day Meredith had just got off work when there was a knock at the door. She was busy so I answered the door as I was getting ready to leave anyways. The person standing on the other side was frightening. It was none other than Derek. Before I could answer the door Meredith was already walking in the room and when he walked into the house she stood there looking at him. She didn’t seem extremely upset as I would have expected her to be but I felt maybe she thought she was dreaming or just simply too shocked to react just how she was truly feeling. He explained to her that he had to fake his death and I can’t remember the reason but she was furious with him for doing what he had done to her and refused to let him back into her life and told him to get out. She told me I could leave and then disappeared. I walked out of the house not knowing what to say but I realize Derek was still outside. I tried helping with saying she was just hurt and he should still fight to get his family back because they need him. He said he planned to but he just didn’t know what to do next and that’s where I woke up. I felt so awkward waking up from that because I didn’t feel like it was a dream at all and at the same time sad because I wish that this was the case that Derek faked his death or that this is all just a long nightmare Meredith will wake up from. All the character’s deaths are hard for grey’s fans but three of the worse was Lexie and Mark’s Plane Crash Death and Derek’s car accident death. They all three where strong characters on the show they made the show what it was and the more of these main characters being killed off or moved on and then replaced with new people is making Grey’s feel less like Grey’s. Sadly, I know that Derek won’t be coming back and there’s probably another tragic death somewhere along the line but I just can’t stop watching…why do I do this to myself or should I say why are you doing this to us Shonda?!